Sunday, December 7, 2008

things just work out after all

Things have been good lately.

One year ago I was saying to myself "one year ago I was so happy, so healthy, so busy....etc." I couldn't believe how different things were. Heck, last fall I had a disgusting tube sticking out of my leg draining disgusting fluid-I think for six weeks. So gross! And then a month of a tube in my arm. No baths. Even grosser!

Now I'm saying, "one year ago I was so depressed, so sick, there was nothing but hospital visits on my calendar...etc." I cant believe how different things are today.

I am in a way better place.

I went back to the hospital last month for a routine exam. I think I would have been fine if it wasn't snowing. That's what it did I swear every day I traveled to Salt Lake last December. It played tricks on my mind that I was about to get sick and tired. I pretty much had a panic attack while in the waiting room, and came home and slept all afternoon. Just like last year.

My Dr. said to take 2 ativan when I come in for my next scheduled scans in February. Thank you, I think I will.

So here is a small video I made for my family film festival. I did it in a rush and couldn't find a lot of my footage from the year (like Luke's 3rd birthday where he was incredibly adorable), but anyway this songs always tops the most played on my ipod. LOVE it!


video

30 comments:

MichelleChud said...

Love it!

Roger and Kelli Proctor said...

Alisa you always make me cry! I LOVED this! You are so amazing! I miss you guys, I hope we can see you soon! And look at you with that sassy short hair cut! I love it, did you love it?!

Sonja said...

The video wouldn't work for me. It's probably all the better because it just makes me cry. I'm glad you are doing so much better.

bradnlisa said...

What an awesome video! Did you win the contest??? Your boys are so sweet--they look so BIG! And I LOVE your new hair cut!

Jill said...

Alisa, I think you were inspired to post what you did just for my benefit. I won't bore you with the details, but I really needed to see that video and hear what you had to say about life being better. Thanks so much. It made me cry happy tears. Your family is so beautiful! I went right away to i- tunes and downloaded that song!

Have you seen the movie Castaway? It's one of my favorite movies because of its message. Your post made me think of the speech Tom Hanks gives near the end of the film about ice in his glass. I've watched that part over and over. If you haven't seen it, you should.
It's really the perspective we should all have. "After all, tommorrow is another day!" (to quote another famous character)

Tiffany said...

Congrats on feeling so good. Miracles happen!

Chapman Family said...

So you won right? :)

After a marvelous deep post, let's be superficial for a moment: I never saw a picture of your cute haircut and it is pretty dang cute if I do say so myself. It helps to be drop dead gorgeous (inside and out), let's be honest, and can have any haircut you please. Darn you. :P

And don't get me started on your lawn...

mamabear said...

Thank you for another inspiring post.

JamieJoe said...

Oh STOP IT! This was such an amazing post, I don't think I've cried that hard in a long time. What a wonderful song to use in the video. You are amazing.

Amy said...

You look great, Alisa! Thanks for the post!

wendipooh13 said...

oh wow your video is soo amazing and the song is perfect what a great choice!!! love it!! you guys are such a sweet family

happy mommy said...

I am so glad you posted this. The Marinos family just kept talking about seeing this at Thanksgiving and how wonderful it was, and I was beginning to feel jipped.

Now I've had my morning cry, and all is right with the world.

Macy said...

I loved your video!! Your little boy is adorable!

jennie said...

I always cry over you! I love how slow motion always makes me sentimental. I love the video, and I LOVE your haircut!!!!!!!!!

AnneMarie said...

I'm so happy things are going better this year for you, you certainly deserve it.

ronco said...

I love it, Alisa. I'm glad, too, that it's not a year ago.

Mindy Benson said...

You are such an amazing woman! I loved this video and it was so stinkin' precious!!!

Brooke said...

Ashkii and I are ever amazed by your talents. I love that the Johnsons have a film festival.

Your family is beautiful. We are grateful for you guys, and so happy you are in such a better place. We went to the DC Temple lights tonight, and when we came home, Savannah said, "I really miss my cousins, Mom."

Misty said...

I am happy that you are doing better! What an amazing video, it brought tears to my eyes. You and your boys are beautiful! I love you and I hope life just gets better from here on out for you and your cute family.

Roger and Kelli Proctor said...

ok so Alisa Josh left a message on my blog about needing Roger's number and so I was going to email it to you! Is it the gmail one still? If its not let me know! Thanks!

kathyurry said...

I Love your new Blog and most of all I love the short clip of you and the boys. To look at you this year and to look back to last year I would allways Love this year better. You will never have it (Cancer)again any way not in this ward. You are so strong and do so many good things I am glad I know you and I just want to say I LOVE YOU
Kathy

rachel said...

That is a beautiful video Alisa. I needed that today. Thank you.

Kiki said...

WOW!! LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! I love your short hair too!

The Hoosiers said...

Well, I dont know if you will ever scroll down to the bottom of this wonderful comments list but if you do...I just wanted you to know that I also love ya. You better have won this year! Made me cry, of course! And I love that song. You are so inspiring. I always think of that study you posted on your blog a while back that says that we are addicted to our kids. So true! Take care, I am so glad you are doing better!**Steph

Loreli Caldwell said...

Beautiful! I love the updates, and that was a great one! I am so happy for you. And as if it hasn't been said enough, I too, think your hair is darling!

The Thurstons said...

Alisa - that video is beautiful (and that song - wow)! What an awesome thing to have (and it's a tradition every year - what a great idea!) Your family is gorgeous - I am so glad that you are doing so good! You are all just darling!!! -Deb

Cara said...

Incredible!!!! Of course you had me crying...but happy tears. Your talents never stop amazing me.

Momila said...

That video was amazing..the perfect thing to view on Jan 1st.
I wish us all a wonderful adn miracualous 2009.
Love you!
Buffy

Fugal Family said...

I can always count on your photography/movie talent to give me a good cry. You are so beautiful, happy, and classy. I want to grow up and be just like you!

Natalee said...

Alis, good to see you and your cute family. Thanks for sharing the video, that is a great song.