Sunday, March 22, 2009

the perspective ive been waiting for

I'm ready to take a break from writing about cancer for a while.

I don't think about it much now, although it has shaped the way I think. The way I feel. The way I act.

I went back through my blog about the last couple of years (has it been that long?). I'm so glad I wrote it down, it seems so out of focus now. It was a bitter sweet read. Bitter because it reminded me how I felt when there was no light at the end of the tunnel. There wasn't even a tunnel.

Sweet because I know how it ends. How space will be carved around me and light will flood in.

And then I step out. Squinting.

They say cancer is about life, not death.

I say it too.

I dance it in the family room.

I sing it in the shower.

I breathe it in the morning air.

I feel it when the sun shines.

I hear it when my kids laugh.

I know it.

14 comments:

Bryanna said...

I'm glad you wrote it down too because I have enjoyed hearing your inspiring thoughts.

Karlet said...

Beautiful post, as usual, Alisa.

Amy said...

Beautiful post.

Jill said...

I hope this dosen't bother you, but I've refered a lot of friends to your blog when they've need some perspective. They have all been touched and influenced by it in such good ways. My friend, many who don't even know you are always asking about how you're doing.

This post gave me such an overwhelming feeling about the truth that experiencing adversity is so essential to being able to appreciate goodness, beauty, love, and life.

Adversity is about life!

Can't wait for next week!!!!!

AnneMarie said...

I'm glad you've been blogging all of it too. You-mazing.

Amber said...

Alisa, this was beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

Heather said...

You have such a gift for communicating these things. Thank you for sharing your perspective

Doc said...

This goes on my all-time favorite blog post list. Thank you.

Tiffany said...

Wow, what a great perspective. It's really nice to hear!

ronco said...

Alisa—so simple-minded.

rachel said...

Great post Alisa.

jennie said...

Who knew you were such a poet? You fancy pants.

bradnlisa said...

I too am glad you wrote down your honest feeling in dealing with cancer. You've made your struggle very real for me and I love reading your posts!

Brooke said...

You have created an amazing, real, and beautiful account of your journey here. You are a gifted writer and person. Thanks for sharing. Miss you guys!