Thursday, February 21, 2008

'the resurrection of departed pride....'

Just wanted to give a quick update since some get anxious when I don't. To please those in that category (which, oddly enough, includes me).....

I started up my shots again last week. I feel as tired as I did before, but not sad and hopeless. Thank goodness!!

I have only enough energy to take care of my kids, take a walk, and do a little housework. Most everything else Ive dropped out of for a while. For example, I have like 50 messages on my phone right now and it stresses me out so much that I have no intention of listening to them. My ringer has been off for 4 days now. If you need to get a hold of me email might be your best bet. Even then, I have lots of emails I need to respond to. I'm sorry! I do hear you and love you, I'm just dang tired.

Oh, and I need to share the great success Ive had this week with my leg. I had two therapy sessions at the hospital where they wrapped up my leg with bandages to push the fluid out. When I took off the bandages I was looking at the smallest Ive seen my limb in months! Peasant surprise! The therapist told me to compare lymphedema with diabetes-not curable, but defiantly manageable. I like that way of looking at it!

Ive been wearing capris and skirts despite the ugly stocking. I just tell people "its my prosthetic limb. They did a good job, hu?" And then I fake a limp.

Now that Im in my right mind, my leg really doesn't bother me, and I realize its a small price to pay to cut out the cancer. I'm sure you could all see that, and I feel like a brat for complaining.

Today, though, there is not one thing to protest. Including the weather.

17 comments:

Dad said...

Great news, Alisa. We love you.

Jill said...

Thanks Alisa!

jennie said...

So happy to see a post! So happy your spirits are feeling better! So happy your leg is looking better! Maybe your therapist can do something for my puffy pregnant legs. xox!

All about the Benjamin's said...

Alisa-
I always look forward to seeing if you have blogged. You some how put me back into percpective of how things really are, I appreciate your honesty! Josh is lucky to have you for a wife and you have him as a husband. Your a trooper and I can only imagine how you must be feeling. Atleast your making time for what is important. Take care and many thoughts and prayers are going your way.

lou said...

You may have forgotten your littlest sister, but I love you!

ronco said...

Maybe if you wanted them to, they could still cut it off and make a prosthetic out of it. Do they do that?

Karlet said...

I love your prosthetic!

Annie Lane said...

Prosthetic! I love it. You have a darling sense of humor--I admire your quick wit. It takes me hours to think about something cute to say. We think of you often!

Sonja said...

Thanks for the post, Alisa!

Chapman Family said...

You make me laugh! Prosthetic? :) I just wanted to thank you for taking pictures on my wedding day 11-01. (we have your Thank you card somewhere...) We should have had YOU as our photographer. (Where was Brandon to tell me that you did that stuff?) Your pictures are the only ones I like. woohoo!

Misty said...

Love you Alisa and I think of you often!!!! You are amazing!!

wendipooh13 said...

oh my gosh such good news for you!!! glad to hear it and glad to see you blogging too.. the prosthetic joke really cracks me up!!

MichelleChud said...

Glad to hear you're feeling a little better about your leg. Sorry you're back on the shots. An necessary evil I guess. :)

Whatsatoomzaletson said...

It is always lovely to hear from you lovey.

dawn said...

yeah for a little sunshine right? I was about to run away to Cali just to keep sane! I'm glad you're feeling a little better. We love you!

Lindsey said...

This is so random of me to post on your blog, and I apologize if your upset that I have blog surfed to you. But I have just read your entire blog, wow huh?! I had to tell you what an inspiration, a fierce warrior, and a sweet loving person you seem to be. I only have 3rd hand experiene with Melanoma, but their case was not what you have been through. I know that if I ever get cancer I will think of you. I know you're tired and have been through so much, but you are so talented. Your pictures are incredible! Your family loves you so much and that is so great to see. I love that the church members are there to take care of you because you know deep down that is the Lord's way of caring for you, in a physical sense. I am probably rambling but I just wanted to say I felt the spirit through your words and I pray that you stay on the uphill fight.

Angela said...

Such good news! Your body is fighting this cancer AND managing to look so gorgeous -- before and after the haircut. I'm so happy for you.