Monday, October 15, 2007

WEblog gone bad

Josh wouldn't let me blog last night. He thought I needed some sleep. I'm going to just blog twice as much today in defiance.

Lots of emotions this week. I was so happy when a gorgeous new couch arrived from an anonymous donor (I have my suspicions). Ive never had a couch I didn't have to hide with a slipcover so I'm really enjoying it.

A little scared when the hospital called the other day to verify my information...'just calling about your radical groin disection.' My stomach didnt like the way that rolled off the tongue. Count me out of anything using the word radical, especially involving a knife. Ive mentioned before my intense fear of surgery. Its just that I have to keep my fingers on my wrist in the dentists office if they give me the gas just to make sure my pulse doesn't...I don't know...stop. Totally absurd.

Its been hard to say hello and goodbye again to my parents who came into town for general conference. A lot of people told me when their parents were on missions and such everything just went so smoothly while they were gone. Its seeming a little opposite here for me, but I'm hoping somehow it will help? I don't know how, and I don't mean to complain, but it seems like I never needed a mom so bad. I know its not her choice to be far away.

My sister is here tonight, but is leaving in the morning. She has been doing everything for me so unselfishly. We got a lot of organization done and she is leaving me with a clean house. She always reminds me how bad a housekeeper I am by doing things that have never been done ie bleaching my showers and linens. There is nothing like a sister, really. When we were little we used to get in these weird, tired moods where everything that happened would send us into hysterics and my stomach would hurt from the uninterrupted laughter. Tonight we just cried at the end of the day.

We told James and Sam about the surgery tomorrow. Sam said "I hope we only get good news or no news" James made a gun with his hands, "I'm shooting. I'm shooting for the good news target." Sam pointed to his head "My brain is telling me its going to be bad news." Fun times.

We wont hear the pathology reports till Thursday, but everyone is sure there wont be cancer in what they are taking out. Sam missed this memo.

I was glancing through my blog starting from this summer. I'm a little sad that my sweet little blog has turned so sour! I really do have so much hope and faith, and love and gratitude. This could end in I guess a tragedy, but I hope and pray that I'm around to make some triumphant title in 5 years.

Which reminds me that Ive been purposely not reading any blogs for a while so I could have some reading to do while in bed. If anyone wants to share their blog with me email the address to alisa.linton@gmail.com or put it in the comments. I would love to see what SWEET things are going on in your lives!!

18 comments:

Jesse and Leah said...

I'm addicted to blogging...I think it is a great way to keep up on everyone's life and to get to know your friends even better!

My thoughts are with you today...I'll be checking my pulse too. I totally know that feeling. I check lots of people pulses and I check out veins for IVs. Do you ever find yourself doing that?

Our blog site is www.jesseandleahpowellfam.blogspot.com.

Let me know if you need anything!

Eric & Emily said...

Hi Alisa -
We check your blog everyday & continuously keep you in our thoughts & prayers. If you want to read about our exciting lives you can visit
www.stauffyfam.blogpsot.com

we love you!
Eric & Emily

Brooke said...

Alisa
We are still praying for you. I am glad you have had so much help. We miss you guys and love you all!

Whatsatoomzaletson said...

Arisa, me and Nate are thinking about you today and praying for you. We wish we could be there. Loves!

stigbuf said...

Just so you know, I've wondered why this happens when we are in Chile, too. But I have faith that some day we will all take a look at what is happening this year, and it will all make perfect sense. I will start my own blog soon, and I hope to write up some of the amazing things that have happened..largely because of this "encounter with cancer" we are having.
I just finished "Tuesdays With Morrie", for those who don't know, our family is reading books together in a kind of cyber-bookclub. It's a fascinating little book, one we picked before "The Encounter". Here is one of my favorite quotes from it: "Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live...if you accept that you can die at any time-then you might not be as ambitious as you are...the things you spend time on...might not seem as important. You might have to make room for some more spiritual things...We are too involved in materialistic things and they don't satisfy us. The loving relationships we have, the universe around us, we take these things for granted."
We have all been given a chance to re-evaluate. Does anyone else think it is a miracle that we even have this technology, that Alisa set up our blog-thing just a few weeks before "the encounter"?!

The Wood Monkeys said...

Alisa,
Thinking of you all day today--just praying all goes well. Wish it could all be taken away and life would return to "normal" for you and your fam...

Brittany said...

Here is a funny, FUNNY blog I read every chance I get - she's a friend from home with a couple of kids, and, like you, a budding photographer full of...what's the best word? Chutzpah.

And I mean that in the best way possible.

rabbitintheheadlights.blogspot.com

ronco said...

Alisa, if you're alive, approve this comment.
[sigh of relief]

lou said...

your Blog hasn't been letting me post comments for a long time. Anyhow, you're lucky to have Sonja visit. And you're lucky to be the wonderful and beautiful person you are. And you're also lucky to have kids like James and Sam and Luke.

balega said...

Alisa is still asleep, she has woken up a few times and is in a bit of pain. She is alive though and that is why I published jon's comment. and Kirst, I will remind her about how lucky she is when she wakes up. I have a feeling she will need some reminding.

Doc said...

Alisa, I'm thinking about and praying for you. I think the surgery would be more pleasant if you thought of it as a radical surgery like Bill and Ted or the teenage mutant ninja turtles would use the word, not like an oncologist uses it. RADICAL!

The Christen's Comings and Goings said...

Hi-I'm Tricia's friend with Inflammatory Breast Cancer. I sent you an email with more info along with an invite to my blog. I hope that you are doing okay--I hate recovering from surgery also.
Suzanne C

Natalee said...

Hey Alis,
I find my thoughts are turned to you often throughout my day. If you get really bored you can read my blog at steveandnatalee.blogspot.com I also have the links to other blogs of some roomates you knew (I think). Anyway, I hope you got my package, I hope I used the right address. Love-Nataluski

dawn said...

alisa-I'm not sure that my blog will you keep udpated on anything that is going on my life--I mean really who wants to read about that, but maybe you will laugh a little. dawnrtaylor.blogspot.com

Sonja said...

Alisa, the only reason I cleaned random things is because your house was so clean anyway. You are a great housekeeper, a great mom and a great writer. Everything you say is perfect. Hope you are pain free soon.

Dore said...

Josh and Alisa...

I have been a closet reader for so long and am feeling guilty about it. I have been following everything that has been taking place. It brings back memories of when we were going through the cancer of my brother. My prayers are with you Alisa as well as Josh and your boys. You have great such great faith and I know that our Heavenly Father will bless you with the things that you are in need of at this time.

With much aloha...
Doré

Brandon said...

Here is some reading material
http://www.iwannagetlostwithsawyer.blogspot.com/
http://goldys.blogspot.com/

jennie said...

A couple of things. I shoplifted at ikea today. OOPS!! I found another curtain hanging thing in my purse. I had no idea you were such bad influence on me!!!

Next... I LOVED being with you today. Thanks for sacrificing some time to me and my selfish need of wanting your opinion on curtains. You have great taste and Peter told me that you've already proven your great taste to him with your photography. He said, "she has a real artistic eye... she can help you decorate any time."

Lastly, I love you from the bottom of my heart and I forgot to wish you good luck on your surgery! xoxo